the earth is (not) a cold dead place // chapter one
[ 1. between an erupting earth and an exploding sky ]
You can sense your soul being pulled back into the universe in which you left him. Every nerve and thought and emotion centers around him as your screams die down into hushed gasps, sobered by the distant sound of Shinji’s voice echoing in your mind.
He can feel you.
He wants you back.
Word count: 4,595
Rating: M
Previous chapters: prologue
Summary: Driven to the limits of his sanity after the events of 3.0, Kaworu returns to his last loop to finish what he started. [AU. Kawoshin, some Marisuka.]
the earth is (not) a cold dead place // evangelion
[ prologue: the only moment we were alone ]
For countless years you shape the fragile web of space and time in your hands until they’re pliant and meaningless. And every time, no matter how many strings you pull, how many things you cross out of existence, how many times you give Shinji your entire heart and more, you fail.
Word count: 4,129
Rating: M
Summary: Driven to the limits of his sanity after the events of 3.0, Kaworu returns to his last loop to finish what he started. [AU. Kawoshin, some Marisuka.]
Evangelion 1.0: Get in the fucking robot shinji
Evangelion 2.0: Get in the fucking robot shinji
Evangelion 3,0: Don't you dare get in the fucking robot shinji
Kaworu cackled to himself quietly, and steepled his hands. He had an insidious plan brewing. It was one of many in a long line. But what plan, dear reader, was it? You would be shocked, astonished even, to discover, the details of this horrible scheme. A task of that nature is to be relegated to a true villain, a mastermind of evil. So, it is only natural that that task falls to Kaworu Nagisa.
“Shinji,” he whispered, red eyes aglow as thunder and lightning shredded the night sky. “I will make you happy.”
He threw up his hands, laughing maniacally. “WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!”
A soft ding was heard in the kitchen. The oven door slowly opened to revealed a warm, luscious chocolate cake.
It was beginning.
farther than ever before
Word Count: 697
Pairing: Kawoshin
Notes: Title from Transatlantacism by Death Cab for Cutie
“It’s dangerous but when he’s facing Kaworu it’s terribly easy to forget that the ground stops no more than a metre behind him, a great expanse of unknown lying in its wake.”
Fandom: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Pairing: Kaworu Nagisa/ Shinji Ikari
Summary: He just can’t help himself.
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fic: riot on an empty street [kawoshin]
It’s Vi’s birthday! :D Happy birthday, Vi! You get Kawoshin fic!
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your heart beats faster when it’s with mine
Word Count: 661
Pairing: Kawoshin
Notes: Title from Mescaline by Robert Francis
“’I, I’m um, really just-’ And he could inhale and exhale for an hour straight but this wouldn’t be any easier.”
of thee i sing // evangelion
1. air
The dream is that of chasing. Shinji doesn’t realize he’s the one chasing until he feels his dream-legs aching and burning with exertion, his dream-arms reaching out as he tries to grab hold of something he doesn’t understand. Through the thick, choking smoke, he sees nothing but a shadow standing an unprecedented distance away; no matter how fast he runs, the distance remains the same.
When the fog clears, he finds the willow of Rei standing on the edge of a fast-crumbling cliff, her eyes to the sky. Shinji runs faster. He can’t catch her. She won’t let him near.
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2. earth
“I couldn’t be a mother to you. And I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for that.”
“I didn’t want you to be that!” Shinji is panting, his blood hot. “I just wanted you to be there!”
A man’s voice calls out Misato’s name from somewhere in the distance; Kaji stands in a wash of sunlight, beckoning her. Misato’s smile is small and sad, and the look in her eyes says goodbye.
Flowers grow beneath her every step as she walks away, and Shinji is stricken with the need to stomp on them as she slowly vanishes from sight.
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3. fire
Over the roar of the oncoming train, Asuka is screaming.
“You have no idea what love is! You think putting up with everyone’s shit without saying how you really feel counts as being nice, but it’s just you being weak. No wonder everyone always walks all over you, you just sit back and let them!”
When Shinji just looks at her, hollow and sightless, Asuka gives a hateful hiss and raises a shaking hand to strike him. Shinji doesn’t move, doesn’t try to stop her. Her hand goes right through him. The train roars by like something alive and hungry.
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4. water
They stand amidst a red wasteland, hand in hand.
“This is the world you left behind,” Kaworu says, soft and pensive. “How does it look to you?”
Shinji takes in a tremulous breath. “It’s…empty. And very quiet.”
“Do you like the quiet?”
Shinji’s hesitation weighs heavily on him. “I used to,” he murmurs, “but this feels very different…” He can feel Kaworu gazing at him closely when he says, “I didn’t think I’d miss everyone’s noise so much.”
Kaworu squeezes his hand. “Do you want to go back?”
“Only with you.”
Kaworu smiles. The red world slowly clears to blue.
by your hand
Word Count: 1004
Pairing: Kawoshin
Summary: ”He’s bitter, he knows it. The feeling is sure, a stark contrast to the shaky grip he is being held in.”
Notes: This is really just manga!Kaworu angst
This is my first Kawoshin fic, so I’m terribly sorry for any OOC-ness that occurs, as well as my terrible writing skills at Porn things. OTL
But if you read, I hope you enjoy it a bit!
So I heard you like Kinks….
When Kaworu first mentions to him what exactly he wants to do to him in bed, he had to say he was surprised. He wasn’t expecting for his boyfriend’s list to be exactly…that long. But one night, he decides to maybe make his beloved happy for a change, so he brings up the idea while they sat up, cuddled together in each other’s arms. Kaworu took his head out from the nook of Shinji’s shoulder and head to peer up at him, his eyes wide with interested and curious gleam.
